Well,

Like always there is really nothing to say that is of interest.

School life is average for me.
Drama is great.
Anthro is boring.
Engl is good.
Comp is good.
I have made some new "friends" i suppose. Still have my one of best with me. Lunch is great and hanging out is greater.

Home life is okay.
The kids here make things hectic, and when they go back home it seems that stillness in the air, hearing a pin drop is all to grad. .... Untill im left alone for hours and start to freak XD.
My mom is still a jackass. Immature bitch really.
Family still loves me...
And i visited my Dad and sisters today. Its amazing to see how the young ones in the family have grown....

Oldest to youngest....Yes, you may skip this.

The twins- They are 10 now. Boy and girl that i grew up with... I almost forget they can read and write. She is growing so maturly, so lady like. While he, the twerp is growing taller than his sister and becoming an average teenage boy... yet, I still treat them as if they where 5... I miss it really... I took it for granted.
The cousins- they are like 7 i think? .... She is growing very fast as well, i catch her with make up on and saying things above her age like "Thats making me "hot" " .... I dont like it one bit. While the other one i cannot see often due to his parents. we use to be close. he is growing as well. As expected.
Lastly. My sisters... the two youngest anyways. both My little 2 year old sister is what brought all of this thought to cross my mind. As i visited them, i watched in amazment as she is talking in full sentences, climbing up onto things to turn on t.vs, dvds, radios, and various other things. She sings so many songs off by heart and knows all the movies in frount of her and hiden away. She amazes me to no end. And my littlest, not even a year. I remeber when i didnt even want to hold her, afraid to break the little thing. Do something wrong... Now she bounces on my lap. looks at me and laughs.
Sure I have more family. Tons of other cousins a couple i see almost every day that i didnt include. But, they dont have as much impact i suppose.
Then.... The thing that scares me the most....
I looked into the mirror, across from my bed, right before i started this journal. and i froze. I froze because I didnt reconize the person looking back at me. For a second i just.... i dont know.... I just wish i had more time.... There are people out there that make it worth living in the moment. My mate, family and friends. It just saddens me to know everything will be over so soon i suppose. I do have plans for the future though, I have everything planned out, dont think im trying to avoid it. Its the opposite. The future, It is going to be amazing, make me forget all these worries and get new ones that i will only have because i am happy.
As for now. I can only be greatful for the things i have. <3<3


Sorry for the rant. . Well, I have school tomarrow. That means i have to go.
Tomarrow is hat day. The first day in our spirt week. yeah, I have changes to bring~!

Anybody have any requests? I should start drawing again. It wont be great or anything but meh,something to do. I will try my best. -thumbs up-




Goodbye, Fell free to give imput on my rediculous rant XD.
~Kaorie~Sama/Kohi/Danna/Darlin' and formally Chan.
I miss you all.


~" Am I that uninportant that you cant pay attention?,
Making my words go into permantent suspention.
Well,
All I every wanted was for you to hear me out.
To lisen to me speek up when i have no doubt.
Because,
It makes me feel wanted and loved.
Only then do i feel like I really belong.
In my eyes I know ive done nothing wrong.
Well,
I'm staying quite now, keeping to myself.
Im a Silent Lisener.
Shhh.
Make me relise I am heard.
Let me be heard. "~
~Amanda.